FeeLinGZ...

okies....2dae...i got up on time... dn i went tam. interchange to mit up wit two of my class mates dn took a bus to school... they wre very kecho in the bus wit their lame tok n disturbing each other... dn we got to school on time but we were lock outside coz the door was lock... dn we went to the other side but it was lock too... waste our time onli... dn i called my teacher to open for us the door... n he did... Y WE DID NOT TINK OF IT EARLIER.... k la dn we attent the anger menagement tok... IT WAS SO BORING...!!! k... my dae at school is so boring 2dae...dn i went to mit fadz n fadlee coz they were at tam. alreadi eating at cs so i met up wit them at the MRT... we dn walked to the cc where we had dance prac. 2dae n abg n zal was there alreadi aso...dn izhan came n they was doin the formation for our this satdae performance...i went to the fifth floor to slp coz i was very tired n i realli had a deep slp coz the wind was so great... but i dn had to wake up from my wonderful nap coz i had to prac. for satdae performance...dn it rain n the cc tai che class came up to use the place we alwaes prac. so we had to go dome near sun plaza...K LAZ LETZ TOK ABOUT MYSELF....

MYSELF...

hmm... guess no one could see my problemz or watz bothering mi to huh..not even fadz i guess coz so poor switty she is sick 2dae... her face cn see... k guys... after wat happen to fadz juz now made mi feel down n made mi wanna tink alot n about wat izhan said n neya...like neya said... juz dun tink too much about ur past coz it wud alwaes b there in ur memories... n u juz cannot hide from it coz how long r u gonna run awae from it..? ITZ FOR REAL... THIS IS LIFE.. the onli wae is to juz face it n see the out come is... coz guess it would make u a someone hu had once experience about relationship break downs in the future... n as for wat izhan said... hmm... yup i juz wanna cry out loud n hard if it makez mi feel betta but it does not change anithing if i cried out loud n juz now i was juz holding back my tears coz i did not wan anithing of them to see im down... the one thing tat would make mi feel betta is cutting my hand... but itz a stupid thing to do as alot of people would sae n guess i hav found sumthing new tat could make mi feel betta... n that is juz to be alone by myself n mayb sitting wit someone who understandz mi n juz lay my head on their shoulder n juz tel them my story....n if u wanna noe the truth u guyz.. juz now when u guys ask mi if im okie n i said i was but i wasn't n i did not wan to tel u all coz i dun wan to trouble or worri u guyz.... SERIOUSLY IM NOT OKIE.... im juz scared wat fadz felt juz now is wat i guess my galfrenz gonna face soon if i were to break our relationship up...i feel tat im so in the rong... like im plaeing wit her feelingz but im nt... i juz dunno how to tel her n thatz y im still wit her... i juz dunno wat to do now... i hav no feelingz for her nw seriousli not even alil... n whenever she calls... i hav no mood to tok to her n even if i sae i miss or love her...itz juz wordz... it did not come from the bottom of my heart... sorri gal im feeling this wae to u... i juz tried so hard to love u alreadi but i cannot... THATZ Y I LIKE BEING ALONE NOW...i would feel betta n my mind can tink clear... STILL SO LOST N CONFUSED... WAKE IN A POOL OF BLOOD... hope tmw wud b a betta dae.. coz everything went smoothli for mi 2dae till my galfren called n wat happen to fadz changed my dae... IM HERE FOR U GAL... ANITIME N ANIWHERE... HEARTZ U...!!!