ON MY MIND...

ok i'll make it short n swit coz im too tired nw so i lazy to type long2..

hmm... i was dae dreaming the whole trip through 2dae when my teacher brought my whole class on a trip around singapore in a farry... itz like i was listening to tis song the whole dae "WHEN UR GONE" n i wished sumone could dalicate this song to mi coz the song was so 4 my ex once apon a time in the past... n talking about her... guess i hav gotten over her but our sweet memories still cannot be 4gotten n itz stuck to my head... guess we still r frenz ryt..? im greatful enough alreadi betta then we not having anithing to do wit each other animore... i juz dun hav the same feeling which i had when i was waiting 4 u this almost 1 year... the love the care n the wae we used to talk.. n guess im not missing u like i alwaes did every single dae...

n about this sumone who has been on my mind resently... i dunno if my mindset towards u is changing coz wat i saw tat dae was a feeling i never felt before in my life n i dun blame u 4 making mi feel tat wae coz u dun even noe if i like u or not... itz like u sae tatz ur lepak2 memberz who u noe 4 2 years eh..? till because of them u r who u r todae... hey.. my frenz who i lepak2 wit pun dun touch our other gerl frenz like tat man... n they dun juz kiss like got no respect 4 gerlz like tat... n u wanna noe the true reason y i wanna juz leave u n go sumwer else..?? itz not because u were gonna get drunk but itz because i was hurt about wat this two painful eyes of mine saw... a gerl who i was starting to fall for kissing n being touched by other guy like she was so cheap... i noe shes not deep inside...

seriously... i can juz sit infront of u n juz look a ur smile n ur pretty face coz it makez mi feel like im dreaming... but itz like im so confuse right now cause i dun love to get hurt n i hav gotten hurt too many times over n over again till i juz thought u were the one who could finally fix back this broken heart but guess i was wrong.. or maybe itz still nt the time yet...i juz feel like juz walking awae witout a single word n never to return or look back... or should i juz be there for u n take care of u so that nothing wud happen to u till u got urself a boifren then i would leave for good... hw..??? wish u were reading this...making u or seeing u happy is the least i could do piggy

sumone once said to mi..." gerls are juz using guyz... when they need u.. they find u... but when they dun.. u dun even exist in their life... they alwaes keep u waiting or make u feel like they r falling for u cause they noe tat u wud be there if they need sumone to turn to..." tatz wat happen to mi this past one year n if ur wondering how cn a toopid guy like mi can hold on for so long.. well im a king tat if i fall for sumone.. i wud giv them everything i cn or do... n one thing u should not do to mi is hurt mi... i had been hurt to much alreadi n i dun wanna feel hurt no more...

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anto aka hotsuff
bleedintearsnsorrow

if i fall again i promise im gonna leave this part behind...