Monday, January 26, 2009

lost n confused


O.M.G..!!!
im sowie mt broken inside i hav not been
toking to u since i last remembered..
i got something to share wit u 2nite..


hmm.. i just dunnoe wer to start coz watz happening jus
made mi stuck at 1 spot n not moving on though i noe ur
having so much fun n laughter noeing tat u hav found sum1
new hu mite take tat place wer i could never once filled..



so let mi just begin by saeing guess itz too late to turn back time
now knowing that we hav been in this for 4thz plus n ended up like this..
was it my fualt or was it urs..? either way i dun blame both coz
it all started wen my hp spoiled n u left without mi knowing n wen
i found out itz wen u returned..



i was seriously waiting 4 ur msg till new year wen u wished mi
i was so happy but didn't know thingz mite turn out this way..
mirah has alwaes been asking mi HOW U N HER n i would b
like hmm she has not been contacting mi like b4 maybe busy wit
school n mirah too misses u so much talking to her..



till the day i ask mirah about her blog add n saw ur add i was like
HUH..?!! U GOT BLOG..?? Y I DUNNOE..??!! n i questioned my adik
n asked her y she never tell me n kipped mi in the dark about what
is goin on then she said she never wanted to see my sad but guess
i found out the truth sooner or later n honestly i cried wen i read ur post..
knowing the reason y u nvr contact mi like u used to before coz u
had sum1 new in life who had filled tat space i could hav never done..



so was it my fault that im no longer the danzuko u once knew..?
who would alwaes sae he miss n love u without fail..? i noe ur
hurt too but wat cn i do now wen itz all in this mess..? just as i
tot ur the one n wanted to be with u but guess god showed mi
i got to take alil more to 2 settle down n getting hurt once again..
do i even fit 2 be some1z guy..? 2 mi guess i dun coz i keep falling
down n getting hurt over n over again..



anywaes just hope ur having fun at kl n dun tink too much coz sum1
is waiting 4 ur msg wen u return.. but hey.. i still did expect ur msg too
but guess u just did not know rite..?? n im sowit if i did not sae ily
back at msn coz 2 mi tat meaning of love just faded awae coz u
showed mi tat wae..=) n u wanna know y i never said i miss u animore??
cause to mi u just do not miss mi like u once did or the love u said
was not like u did b4 too..



alrite im leaving here 4 nw.. btw if u really wan me back..?
do show mi the true meaning of love n gain my trust alrite..



if u tink u have found sum1 betta dn im all happi 4 you..=)
hope he treatz u n shower u wit all the love no1
could ever give..



dun miss mi wen im gone coz u got a imp. examz this
year do well 4 urself n ur family.. n if im still tat 1
in ur heart dn do it 4 mi too..



danzuko aka bleedingRoMoE

p.s u still hav not lost him after 4mthz n 10daez

bleedintearsnsorrow