ok i'll make it short n swit coz im too tired nw so i lazy to type long2..
hmm... i was dae dreaming the whole trip through 2dae when my teacher brought my whole class on a trip around singapore in a farry... itz like i was listening to tis song the whole dae "WHEN UR GONE" n i wished sumone could dalicate this song to mi coz the song was so 4 my ex once apon a time in the past... n talking about her... guess i hav gotten over her but our sweet memories still cannot be 4gotten n itz stuck to my head... guess we still r frenz ryt..? im greatful enough alreadi betta then we not having anithing to do wit each other animore... i juz dun hav the same feeling which i had when i was waiting 4 u this almost 1 year... the love the care n the wae we used to talk.. n guess im not missing u like i alwaes did every single dae...
n about this sumone who has been on my mind resently... i dunno if my mindset towards u is changing coz wat i saw tat dae was a feeling i never felt before in my life n i dun blame u 4 making mi feel tat wae coz u dun even noe if i like u or not... itz like u sae tatz ur lepak2 memberz who u noe 4 2 years eh..? till because of them u r who u r todae... hey.. my frenz who i lepak2 wit pun dun touch our other gerl frenz like tat man... n they dun juz kiss like got no respect 4 gerlz like tat... n u wanna noe the true reason y i wanna juz leave u n go sumwer else..?? itz not because u were gonna get drunk but itz because i was hurt about wat this two painful eyes of mine saw... a gerl who i was starting to fall for kissing n being touched by other guy like she was so cheap... i noe shes not deep inside...
seriously... i can juz sit infront of u n juz look a ur smile n ur pretty face coz it makez mi feel like im dreaming... but itz like im so confuse right now cause i dun love to get hurt n i hav gotten hurt too many times over n over again till i juz thought u were the one who could finally fix back this broken heart but guess i was wrong.. or maybe itz still nt the time yet...i juz feel like juz walking awae witout a single word n never to return or look back... or should i juz be there for u n take care of u so that nothing wud happen to u till u got urself a boifren then i would leave for good... hw..??? wish u were reading this...making u or seeing u happy is the least i could do piggy
sumone once said to mi..." gerls are juz using guyz... when they need u.. they find u... but when they dun.. u dun even exist in their life... they alwaes keep u waiting or make u feel like they r falling for u cause they noe tat u wud be there if they need sumone to turn to..." tatz wat happen to mi this past one year n if ur wondering how cn a toopid guy like mi can hold on for so long.. well im a king tat if i fall for sumone.. i wud giv them everything i cn or do... n one thing u should not do to mi is hurt mi... i had been hurt to much alreadi n i dun wanna feel hurt no more...
<3>
anto aka hotsuff
bleedintearsnsorrow
if i fall again i promise im gonna leave this part behind...
Monday, August 13, 2007
Thursday, August 9, 2007
national dae..
09.08.07....
kz i started out my dae wit a fone kol fm my ex best bitch saeing she wanna mit mi nw bt i was still in bed n had nt taken my shower yets..so i took my own sweet time to get ready as i had to mit her at tamp. n im staying at hougang nw... dn we met at big mac. n as we were sitting n toking.. a msg was send to mi by sum no. i dunno saeing her name lina n she wanz 2 mit mi at esplanade n as i was going there later in the evening to mit my new family... so i chill at TM wit aishah my sandal till 3 plus coz she had to go werk.. but we stop by watsonz first to giv my ex raudah a very big surprise coz aishah n mi had a very big fight not long ago... after we hug n kissed her.. i send aishah to her stop n i took an MRT to city hall to mit a gerl i dun even noe... as i was sitting in the train... i kolled my piggy n ask if she is coming down to mit mi n my piglet was so moody she sae she mite nt b coming n i was so sad... dn i kolled dane n he sae he coming around 5 plus..
dn as i reached city hall... it was so crowded tat i had a hard time find my wae out...soon.. i met up wit the gerl which i dun even noe or tok or met b4...dn she took mi to mit her other frenz n like her... they were all adik2... heee... it was like all the while.. i was toking n toking n toking while she juz sae 1 or 2 wordz... dn she asked mi if i was att or single so i told her i go wit the flow... dn after awhile.. her frenz asked mi y m i not toking to lina n i was juz smiling... n if im nt rong... i heard her fren kolling her ain.. so is she lina or ain..??? nvm i dun even bother... soon i got bored standing under the hot sun 4 like 2 hr plus freaking hours n lina was scaring mi coz i was so sure she wanted to hold my handz.. so i quicky hold my bag on 1 hand n put 1 more in my pocket.. as it was getting late.. i kolled dane n he sae he was otw wit my piglet n i was so happy coz piggy was coming n i cud nt wait to run fm lina... abt 630 dn they reached city hall MRT so we decided to mit at sub wae at marina bay... i tried to find my wae out 4 quite sumtime b4 i finally found the exit n i went to sub wae to mit my piggy n my sugar mummy...
when i met them... i was so tired so i took a rest awhile n they were like asking mi y im like tis n i asked dane 4 a ciggi coz i really nided 1 at tat point of time.. dn after i smoked n they bought 4 mi food.. we sat n tok y i was so tired n i took them abt the lina gerl n about me getting hit on the face by a policeman... my piglet was so angry wit mi coz i said i wanted to mit her at CCK but in the end i met wit sum random her... tat sounded so wrong man.. was it my fluat coz she sae she no mood to go..? n she was angry wit mi when i sae i wanted to come CCK to mit her..?? dn as we were eating... i foung piggy's unlock place to tickle her.. dn yan the vian boi kolled n he sae he wanted to mit us at clak quey n so do kak vin..so we wen to the bridge to watch fireworkz n piglet was so happy n excited to see the fireworkz when it started... we dn made our wae to clak quey to mit both of them but we went to 7 11 at boat quey first to buy ciggis n while we were juz about to make our wae there.. we met han n his family.. wat a small world... lucky he did nt see mi...
while we was alking to clak quey... my head spin awhile coz i guess it was because i stand or walk too much earlier... as we reached clak quey.. we sat by the stairz n waited 4 kak vin n vain... soon they came sat awhile dn we got our ass to CM n i was shock coz it was like alot of 'adik2 la'... but we had a great time wit kuma around too... but it was like they closed too early n we had to make our way back to clak quey coz kak vin wanted to buy drink again but i did nt noe wat happen...as we were otw there... boi vian was so irritating i swear to u... i can juz get into a fight wit mi at the place itself man... enough is enough man kuwi LAN... dun try 2 push ur luck too far kz coz u hav not seen my true colours yet...dn when we was passing the mac... i saw iszy n tina so i got in n sat wit them awhile n iszy join us at the bridge later on... iszy dn left after awhile n soon jaja came... we sat there till about 5 if im nt rong b4 we all headed home... so much 4 mi goin to CCK to chill wit hid n dane.. my piglet took my frenz motor hm... great man... free ride ape... dn i had to decide wer to head fm there so i followed kak vin to her place n we sat n tok wat i did nt expect us to tok about wat we did... btw tis is wat kak vin sae tat made mi shock awhile... as we came out fm the cab.. i kolled piglet n after i put down the fone kak vin wat like... I NOE U LIKE DAYAH RITE..? n i sae like hmmm... after afew secondz dn i started off wit telling kak vin about mi n my ex... about mi waiting 4 her 4 almost 1 year n dn she told mi juz not to wait 4 her animore... kak vin told mi something about gerlz which i tink i gonna kip in mind coz itz quite true...
dn i came to the part about hid... i sae i dunno if i could fall 4 dayah coz she lot of darlingz n i wanna b with sum1 who cn take care of mi real nice n cn b trusted n not plae with my feelingz coz no1 is perfect so thingz cud alwaes go rong alil... m i falling 4 u my piggy...?? hmm... no1 noes i tink.. but cn it b seen i like u..?? or isit juz pplz wild guess...?? i aso dunno... but it was fun toking to kak vin coz i noe her 4 onli 1 week n we get along pretty well i can sae..
MY FEELINGZ...
m i like missing u in the worse way or something..?? sitting rite beside u noeing tat i cn never be wit u i tink... and i dun even noe if u feel the same 2wardz mi too coz itz gonna hurt alot when u giv somebody ur full love n care n at the end of the day u find out tat they were juz making use of u... r u the 1 who was holding the key to my locked heart..?? r u the 1 who could do wat all the gerlz who were after mi could not do..?? i hope u r cause i really need someone rite now really bad... cause im losing myself soon n juz break down n never find the strength to pull myself up of fixed myself back to 1... if u feel the same wae 2wardz mi too... im alwaes gonna welcome u wit my armz wide open so u would no im really serious about u... juz felt free when i hear ur voice juz 4 a sec n itz betta when u were rite infront of mi coz ur smile n beauty juz made my heart beat skip... juz not hearing ur voice n seeing u 4 1 dae is like im missing u alreadi... guess ur the 1...
i noe u alwaes sae ur here 4 mi bro aka mummy... n i can alwaes juz buzz u if i need help or anithing n imgrateful 4 tat and but worry i will be fine n if i really need help or anithing i will so ask u alrite..?? hopr ur reading tis...
anto aka hotsuff
bleedintearsnsorrow
if i ever fall again
im gonna leave
tis part behind....
heee..
kz i started out my dae wit a fone kol fm my ex best bitch saeing she wanna mit mi nw bt i was still in bed n had nt taken my shower yets..so i took my own sweet time to get ready as i had to mit her at tamp. n im staying at hougang nw... dn we met at big mac. n as we were sitting n toking.. a msg was send to mi by sum no. i dunno saeing her name lina n she wanz 2 mit mi at esplanade n as i was going there later in the evening to mit my new family... so i chill at TM wit aishah my sandal till 3 plus coz she had to go werk.. but we stop by watsonz first to giv my ex raudah a very big surprise coz aishah n mi had a very big fight not long ago... after we hug n kissed her.. i send aishah to her stop n i took an MRT to city hall to mit a gerl i dun even noe... as i was sitting in the train... i kolled my piggy n ask if she is coming down to mit mi n my piglet was so moody she sae she mite nt b coming n i was so sad... dn i kolled dane n he sae he coming around 5 plus..
dn as i reached city hall... it was so crowded tat i had a hard time find my wae out...soon.. i met up wit the gerl which i dun even noe or tok or met b4...dn she took mi to mit her other frenz n like her... they were all adik2... heee... it was like all the while.. i was toking n toking n toking while she juz sae 1 or 2 wordz... dn she asked mi if i was att or single so i told her i go wit the flow... dn after awhile.. her frenz asked mi y m i not toking to lina n i was juz smiling... n if im nt rong... i heard her fren kolling her ain.. so is she lina or ain..??? nvm i dun even bother... soon i got bored standing under the hot sun 4 like 2 hr plus freaking hours n lina was scaring mi coz i was so sure she wanted to hold my handz.. so i quicky hold my bag on 1 hand n put 1 more in my pocket.. as it was getting late.. i kolled dane n he sae he was otw wit my piglet n i was so happy coz piggy was coming n i cud nt wait to run fm lina... abt 630 dn they reached city hall MRT so we decided to mit at sub wae at marina bay... i tried to find my wae out 4 quite sumtime b4 i finally found the exit n i went to sub wae to mit my piggy n my sugar mummy...
when i met them... i was so tired so i took a rest awhile n they were like asking mi y im like tis n i asked dane 4 a ciggi coz i really nided 1 at tat point of time.. dn after i smoked n they bought 4 mi food.. we sat n tok y i was so tired n i took them abt the lina gerl n about me getting hit on the face by a policeman... my piglet was so angry wit mi coz i said i wanted to mit her at CCK but in the end i met wit sum random her... tat sounded so wrong man.. was it my fluat coz she sae she no mood to go..? n she was angry wit mi when i sae i wanted to come CCK to mit her..?? dn as we were eating... i foung piggy's unlock place to tickle her.. dn yan the vian boi kolled n he sae he wanted to mit us at clak quey n so do kak vin..so we wen to the bridge to watch fireworkz n piglet was so happy n excited to see the fireworkz when it started... we dn made our wae to clak quey to mit both of them but we went to 7 11 at boat quey first to buy ciggis n while we were juz about to make our wae there.. we met han n his family.. wat a small world... lucky he did nt see mi...
while we was alking to clak quey... my head spin awhile coz i guess it was because i stand or walk too much earlier... as we reached clak quey.. we sat by the stairz n waited 4 kak vin n vain... soon they came sat awhile dn we got our ass to CM n i was shock coz it was like alot of 'adik2 la'... but we had a great time wit kuma around too... but it was like they closed too early n we had to make our way back to clak quey coz kak vin wanted to buy drink again but i did nt noe wat happen...as we were otw there... boi vian was so irritating i swear to u... i can juz get into a fight wit mi at the place itself man... enough is enough man kuwi LAN... dun try 2 push ur luck too far kz coz u hav not seen my true colours yet...dn when we was passing the mac... i saw iszy n tina so i got in n sat wit them awhile n iszy join us at the bridge later on... iszy dn left after awhile n soon jaja came... we sat there till about 5 if im nt rong b4 we all headed home... so much 4 mi goin to CCK to chill wit hid n dane.. my piglet took my frenz motor hm... great man... free ride ape... dn i had to decide wer to head fm there so i followed kak vin to her place n we sat n tok wat i did nt expect us to tok about wat we did... btw tis is wat kak vin sae tat made mi shock awhile... as we came out fm the cab.. i kolled piglet n after i put down the fone kak vin wat like... I NOE U LIKE DAYAH RITE..? n i sae like hmmm... after afew secondz dn i started off wit telling kak vin about mi n my ex... about mi waiting 4 her 4 almost 1 year n dn she told mi juz not to wait 4 her animore... kak vin told mi something about gerlz which i tink i gonna kip in mind coz itz quite true...
dn i came to the part about hid... i sae i dunno if i could fall 4 dayah coz she lot of darlingz n i wanna b with sum1 who cn take care of mi real nice n cn b trusted n not plae with my feelingz coz no1 is perfect so thingz cud alwaes go rong alil... m i falling 4 u my piggy...?? hmm... no1 noes i tink.. but cn it b seen i like u..?? or isit juz pplz wild guess...?? i aso dunno... but it was fun toking to kak vin coz i noe her 4 onli 1 week n we get along pretty well i can sae..
MY FEELINGZ...
m i like missing u in the worse way or something..?? sitting rite beside u noeing tat i cn never be wit u i tink... and i dun even noe if u feel the same 2wardz mi too coz itz gonna hurt alot when u giv somebody ur full love n care n at the end of the day u find out tat they were juz making use of u... r u the 1 who was holding the key to my locked heart..?? r u the 1 who could do wat all the gerlz who were after mi could not do..?? i hope u r cause i really need someone rite now really bad... cause im losing myself soon n juz break down n never find the strength to pull myself up of fixed myself back to 1... if u feel the same wae 2wardz mi too... im alwaes gonna welcome u wit my armz wide open so u would no im really serious about u... juz felt free when i hear ur voice juz 4 a sec n itz betta when u were rite infront of mi coz ur smile n beauty juz made my heart beat skip... juz not hearing ur voice n seeing u 4 1 dae is like im missing u alreadi... guess ur the 1...
i noe u alwaes sae ur here 4 mi bro aka mummy... n i can alwaes juz buzz u if i need help or anithing n imgrateful 4 tat and but worry i will be fine n if i really need help or anithing i will so ask u alrite..?? hopr ur reading tis...
anto aka hotsuff
bleedintearsnsorrow
if i ever fall again
im gonna leave
tis part behind....
heee..
Monday, August 6, 2007
the RETURN
hahaz i 4got my past word to get into here coz itz been like wat.. 7 mthz i nvr blog..?!!!
kz i woke up early tis morning juz to c if my piglet got to school n yes after 5 long daes of her own holidae she did n she sae she was late 4 her test.. doinkz..!!!! dn my mum woke up n ask mi y m i nt changed yet coz i 4got i had to bring her 4 check up... when she came out fm the room.. i tot she was onli suffering fm low blood but tis time round.. she has heart failer..!!! o.m.g...!!! n the doctor sae she cnt worry too much or it wud get worse.. hw in the blue hell m i gonna tel her abt my own sickness coz it was getting bad to worse nw n i was juz about to tel her abt it but guess i juz hav to keep it fm her till as long as antonio is still around...haix.. sum1 once told mi..alwaes tink positive anto.. im trying but itz too hard 4 mi nw bro.. hope sum1 cn b there 4 mi ryt nw... but i dun wanna trouble ani1 coz every1 has their own problem...
last nite.. i had a kol from nigga shit n not onli was he on the fone but c-zar was on the fone too... n as i expected.. there was 1 more problem to face.. n nw it was about the money which nigga shit pass to han n han sae he pass all the money to mi.. W.T.F...!!!!! y m i in every pic. of hype's problem nw..?!!!!!! wat did i do huh..?!! first every1 hate mi coz the tink i got new frenz dn wanna m.i.a.. dn han tinkz i n hid r 2gether.. btw bro if ur reading tis.. hid got betta taste la im nt even near her standed...i wanna put our friendship on fire but nah juz kidding.. dn tot vin vin was some1 who cn understand mi but guess i was rong coz after wat nigga sae.. even c-zar hu is partner wit vin vin dun trust him... there is onli 1 thing tat showz.. D.T.A..!!! nw.. y must han put mi in the pic. n sae im holding all the money when i dun even noe anithing...!!! r u stabbing mi in the back or wat man..?!! itz like ur being a 2 faced mother fucker to mi nw...!!!
as 4 iszy.. so wat if i send hid home or nt.. it does nt disturb u or ur family ape... so y u wanna tok to mi till like tat sae... hate mi if u wan coz i dun come bagging 4 ur frenship so y i wanna care...!!!
as 4 vin vin .. sorry abg if my mind set as change 2wardz u coz watz happening nw to HYPE made mi tink tis wae... till the air is cleared dn im sure i wud b back on track wit HYPE..
as 4 yan .. dunno u tat well yet bro but ur giving mi a very bad impact on u coz ppl judge wat they c n watz happening nw to u is like very hard to b lif man.. hope ur true to pplz frenship coz trust dun come tat easily.. u got to earn it...
nigga shit.. hmm.. wonder hw a 6 years plus frenship cn turn out tis wae nw... mayb coz i hav been too patient n let u treat mi like ur bank n like a fool too sumtimes but guess wat... i hav finally had enough man... itz time 4 u to juz wake up n get a life of ur own.. u sae u wanna change or isit like wat.. ur changing but to mi ur juz the same old syed nezar i knew 6 yrz ago man... u wanna noe when we r gonna b back to normal..? the dae u hav changed infront of tis 2 eyes of mine...
n nt 4getting han.. hahaz... sista.. guess i finally seen ur true colourz n it makez mi sick man... i feel like vomitting ryt nw... first.. u had a nice n beautiful gf but u juz treat her like trash... itz like onli at club shez ur gf.. dn never look after her or was there when she nidz sum1.. W.T.F..!! tis is so pathetic man.. n u go shooting at her about she telling c-zar abt ur nt her bf.. if i was her i wud do the same.. tank god ur nt her bf animore coz ur juz making her suffer more.. she deserve a much betta guy dn a 'guy' like u... n guess ur a 2 faced mother fucker huh..? oppz... i love plaeing tis game 2... try mi...hahaz...
im in a dilemma nw too coz iszy n the gang of HYPE eastside boiz told mi tat dun b like nigga shit got new frenz dn M.I.A but i like being wit my new family too... they r fun to hang out wit n they make mi feel like im part of them... at the same time.. i dun wanna make the eastside boiz tink tat i hav 4gotten them coz they r the once who gav mi all the fun n feel of going clubbing n a new life... im realli grateful 4 tat but the wae thingz r turning out in HPYE nw is making mi more confused n lost n i juz dunno the wae out from tis mass i hav created... hope i cn find the light to tis dark path im walking nw.. i dunno wanna stay like tis 4 long coz i mite lose both parties at the same time if i dun decide fast... haix...
last of all... mi holding on to the memories of my ex is so hating mi inside out tatz y i hav left tat part alreadi...!!! she is treating mi like a trash too nw n when she wanz sumthing she msg mi if nt i guess i dun even exist in her life.. i feel so unapreciated man... W.T.H..!!! thx eh... im nt gonna entertain all ur bullshit animore my dear.. enough is enough... u tink u onli got feelingz..? hey.. i hav feelingz too ok.. onli itz tat i cry in silence at nite coz i dun wan u to noe im hurt... juz hope u wud find a guy who is betta dn mi n who cn giv u more dn wat i gav...
n my piglet.. juz wanna sae tis coz u hang up the fone last nite b4 i cud sae tis... i noe alot of guyz r after u n itz gud n bad tat u reject them but juz a sae to make u figure it out... " u alwaes leave the once tat love u n love the once tat leave u.."... tc my piglet... dun b scared to let ur feelings go coz if u hold it back. ur the 1 whoz gonna get hut or suffer in the end...
anto aka hotsuff
bleedintearsnsorrow
kz i woke up early tis morning juz to c if my piglet got to school n yes after 5 long daes of her own holidae she did n she sae she was late 4 her test.. doinkz..!!!! dn my mum woke up n ask mi y m i nt changed yet coz i 4got i had to bring her 4 check up... when she came out fm the room.. i tot she was onli suffering fm low blood but tis time round.. she has heart failer..!!! o.m.g...!!! n the doctor sae she cnt worry too much or it wud get worse.. hw in the blue hell m i gonna tel her abt my own sickness coz it was getting bad to worse nw n i was juz about to tel her abt it but guess i juz hav to keep it fm her till as long as antonio is still around...haix.. sum1 once told mi..alwaes tink positive anto.. im trying but itz too hard 4 mi nw bro.. hope sum1 cn b there 4 mi ryt nw... but i dun wanna trouble ani1 coz every1 has their own problem...
last nite.. i had a kol from nigga shit n not onli was he on the fone but c-zar was on the fone too... n as i expected.. there was 1 more problem to face.. n nw it was about the money which nigga shit pass to han n han sae he pass all the money to mi.. W.T.F...!!!!! y m i in every pic. of hype's problem nw..?!!!!!! wat did i do huh..?!! first every1 hate mi coz the tink i got new frenz dn wanna m.i.a.. dn han tinkz i n hid r 2gether.. btw bro if ur reading tis.. hid got betta taste la im nt even near her standed...i wanna put our friendship on fire but nah juz kidding.. dn tot vin vin was some1 who cn understand mi but guess i was rong coz after wat nigga sae.. even c-zar hu is partner wit vin vin dun trust him... there is onli 1 thing tat showz.. D.T.A..!!! nw.. y must han put mi in the pic. n sae im holding all the money when i dun even noe anithing...!!! r u stabbing mi in the back or wat man..?!! itz like ur being a 2 faced mother fucker to mi nw...!!!
as 4 iszy.. so wat if i send hid home or nt.. it does nt disturb u or ur family ape... so y u wanna tok to mi till like tat sae... hate mi if u wan coz i dun come bagging 4 ur frenship so y i wanna care...!!!
as 4 vin vin .. sorry abg if my mind set as change 2wardz u coz watz happening nw to HYPE made mi tink tis wae... till the air is cleared dn im sure i wud b back on track wit HYPE..
as 4 yan .. dunno u tat well yet bro but ur giving mi a very bad impact on u coz ppl judge wat they c n watz happening nw to u is like very hard to b lif man.. hope ur true to pplz frenship coz trust dun come tat easily.. u got to earn it...
nigga shit.. hmm.. wonder hw a 6 years plus frenship cn turn out tis wae nw... mayb coz i hav been too patient n let u treat mi like ur bank n like a fool too sumtimes but guess wat... i hav finally had enough man... itz time 4 u to juz wake up n get a life of ur own.. u sae u wanna change or isit like wat.. ur changing but to mi ur juz the same old syed nezar i knew 6 yrz ago man... u wanna noe when we r gonna b back to normal..? the dae u hav changed infront of tis 2 eyes of mine...
n nt 4getting han.. hahaz... sista.. guess i finally seen ur true colourz n it makez mi sick man... i feel like vomitting ryt nw... first.. u had a nice n beautiful gf but u juz treat her like trash... itz like onli at club shez ur gf.. dn never look after her or was there when she nidz sum1.. W.T.F..!! tis is so pathetic man.. n u go shooting at her about she telling c-zar abt ur nt her bf.. if i was her i wud do the same.. tank god ur nt her bf animore coz ur juz making her suffer more.. she deserve a much betta guy dn a 'guy' like u... n guess ur a 2 faced mother fucker huh..? oppz... i love plaeing tis game 2... try mi...hahaz...
im in a dilemma nw too coz iszy n the gang of HYPE eastside boiz told mi tat dun b like nigga shit got new frenz dn M.I.A but i like being wit my new family too... they r fun to hang out wit n they make mi feel like im part of them... at the same time.. i dun wanna make the eastside boiz tink tat i hav 4gotten them coz they r the once who gav mi all the fun n feel of going clubbing n a new life... im realli grateful 4 tat but the wae thingz r turning out in HPYE nw is making mi more confused n lost n i juz dunno the wae out from tis mass i hav created... hope i cn find the light to tis dark path im walking nw.. i dunno wanna stay like tis 4 long coz i mite lose both parties at the same time if i dun decide fast... haix...
last of all... mi holding on to the memories of my ex is so hating mi inside out tatz y i hav left tat part alreadi...!!! she is treating mi like a trash too nw n when she wanz sumthing she msg mi if nt i guess i dun even exist in her life.. i feel so unapreciated man... W.T.H..!!! thx eh... im nt gonna entertain all ur bullshit animore my dear.. enough is enough... u tink u onli got feelingz..? hey.. i hav feelingz too ok.. onli itz tat i cry in silence at nite coz i dun wan u to noe im hurt... juz hope u wud find a guy who is betta dn mi n who cn giv u more dn wat i gav...
n my piglet.. juz wanna sae tis coz u hang up the fone last nite b4 i cud sae tis... i noe alot of guyz r after u n itz gud n bad tat u reject them but juz a sae to make u figure it out... " u alwaes leave the once tat love u n love the once tat leave u.."... tc my piglet... dun b scared to let ur feelings go coz if u hold it back. ur the 1 whoz gonna get hut or suffer in the end...
anto aka hotsuff
bleedintearsnsorrow
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